where did i break? and what has pulled me through this far?
i am
a renown conversationalist
a love addict
a hermit and also a superb extrovert
the original talker
a sweet one
occasionally genius
and the repeat lazy person
a talent star
and a talent garbage man
an armor minus the shining
a steel
a catch
a thrown thing
an experiment
a changeling
a two way street
the dream you had when you were a child
a poorly made joke
trying
i am trying
but at my own pace and in my own way and
not good enough
i am not good enough
look at all the things that have come true for me
all the blown out candles that sparked
something
i am something
all those wishes that turned into goals that turned into what now’s
all those times i closed my eyes and prayed that this year that
and that was often and almost always love
and look at all the love
and look at yourself in the mirror
and what now
and who
and for how long
and when
just when