the spirit behind you is you ten commas back

i am just the asshole with the ballpoint pen, the asshole with the vintage beret, the asshole who orders double espressos and sits in at the back tables and stares at people all day long, the asshole with the contact lenses and the blue light glasses on top, the asshole no one ever cleans, the dirty asshole who curses in public even in front of the children, the asshole you envy and the asshole you pity too, the asshole who never gets touched poor thing, the asshole who is sexually frustrated, the asshole with the intentional smirk but you like that don’t you, the asshole you like that don’t you, the asshole who is the biggest contrarian but only because belonging is learned and so what i have crippling learning disabilities, the cripple asshole see what i did there, the asshole who just wants to belong among the other assholes, the lonely asshole and i did it again are you blind, the blind asshole someone stop me because i know that the diagnosis goes after the person, no i am not depressed i am a person with depression, no i am not an asshole i am a person with an asshole