the five empty spaces in a crowded city
one:
i have an empty space
on my pinned conversations
on the imessage app
would you like to be there
for me when i’m crying
i have an empty space
on the left side of my bed
because i prefer the wall
to shield me from the morning sun
but the wall is yours if you want it
i have an empty space
in the pockets of my jeans
in the winter time
when my hands get frozen
i’ll sew your fingers to my pockets darling
i have an empty space
in the toothbrush holder
another one more hole
for when we drink too much wine
and your teeth turn red from the loving
i have an empty space
on my body for a tattoo
maybe your name on my skin
will make my mother hate me more
or maybe your name will change things
i have an empty space
on tuesday’s in between classes
so we can run into each other
and still not know how to act
how to lace our arms while everyone watches
i have an empty space
on the first page of my first book
a dedication waiting
for a worthy inspiration
to be published in times new you
i have an empty space
on my electric guitar
where my favorite string broke
from playing too much your favorite song
but i think the notes of your perfume will do
i have an empty space
in the dream catcher by my door
waiting for your dreams to visit
feel free to speak them
my dream catcher was once a therapist
two:
i have an empty space
in this one organ where you rest your head
the doctors said i was early
eager to love the world
even with empty spaces
eager to fill those spaces with worlds
but then you imessage me that
heart murmurs whisper i love you
and i no longer have an empty space
on my pinned conversations
on the imessage app
and there is no empty space
between our organs
when i begin to cry
and we no longer forget how to act
when the space is not empty
and everyone watches
and there are no empty first pages
or even first books
because it turns out
i wrote all the books i was going to write
when you kissed me for the first time
and there are no empty tuesday’s
or friday’s or sunday’s
because there are no more days
because the weeks decided
they did not want to pass you by
empty
three:
and if the weeks ever hear the guitars
saying they want more strings
saying they have empty spaces
then the weeks would take time
back to the time before music existed
back to the time before crowded cities
and leave an empty space in the world
four:
i touch where you have empty spaces
five: you leave